29 weeks baby!

Today I am officially 29 weeks (thank you Lord!!!) and have begun the wonderful journey of "bed rest".... My OB told me that IF I were able to make it through the semester without any complications that I'd be put on bed rest "immediately"; however, since I have been doing so well I haven't gotten the OFFICIAL word yet & will be taking it easy until my next appt this upcoming Tuesday.

Last week we had our monthly MFM appt and received more great news (never get tired of that statement!) about our babies. All 3 cooperated nicely & all necessary measurements were taken. They each weighed in at 2lbs 12 oz! The MFM said she'd never had triplets weigh the same or that had weighed this much at this point in a pregnancy! She also said they were in the 50th (A & B) & 51st (C) percentiles for a singleton pregnancy (the ideal percentage) & that they were definitely bigger than triplets are expected be at 28w5d! Talk about WOW!!! Lastly, she also said that she "didn't know what to say" because she'd never had triplets do this well & that she couldn't believe there weren't any concerns, etc. My OB told me that they won't let me go past the end of January (34/35ish weeks), so the countdown has definitely begun! Who knows how long I'll make it if they continue to grow at this rate!!

The nursery is starting to come together, but still needs a few crucial items and the rest of the rooms are starting to slowly fall into place. Pictures will be posted once there is more progress, but hopefully it'll be done before the babies arrive! :) I'll update again after the Tuesday appt!

Thanksgiving reflection

It's a tradition in my family every Thanksgiving to go around the table & have everyone share what they're thankful for. Growing up, my brother & I thought this was annoying & had to think hard to come up with a legit answer (besides the typical "I'm thankful for mom's long nails so she can scratch our backs", etc). Nowadays, I can't stop coming up with things I'm thankful for: I am thankful for my wonderful husband and look forward to the father he will be to our children, I am thankful for my wonderful parents who continue to be such a great example of what I want to be "when I grow up", I am thankful for my family & in-laws for their support and encouragement, I am thankful for my career and all the little blessings I work with each day, and I am thankful for my friends who have been there for me and continue to lift me up in tough (read: "freak-out") moments. Most importantly, I am thankful that God has chosen to bless Kris & me with 3 growing angels and that we continue to receive positive news at every appointment - we can't wait to meet these little guys!!

Yesterday my mom sent me an e-mail that really hit home - it's simple, but to the point. I hope it speaks to you as well:

A Better Plan from a Better Planner
By John Ortberg

It’s almost Thanksgiving, with Christmas right behind. Often on the holidays we become aware that life does not go the way we plan. We think to ourselves:

I was supposed to be married by now.
I was supposed to be promoted by now.
I was supposed to have retired, or to have children, or to have achieved this dream-
Or, I wasn’t supposed to go bankrupt. I wasn’t supposed to lose my job, or get divorced, or get cancer.
What do you do when life doesn’t turn out the way you planned?
One of the great statements of the Bible reads: “For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the LORD. Plans to prosper you, and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope, and a future.’
Jeremiah 29:11

We all have plans. But God does not say: “I know the plans YOU have for you…”
In the Bible, God is always interrupting somebody’s plan.
Adam didn’t plan on getting created.
Noah didn’t plan on building an ark.
Abraham didn’t plan on becoming the father of a new nation in his 90’s.
Esther didn’t plan on stopping genocide.
Moses didn’t plan on defying Pharaoh.
Mary didn’t plan on getting pregnant.

Not a single story in the Bible begins: “Then someone had a great plan…”
But God has a plan.
Better than our plan.

So even if we have many disappointments, we have something else, something to be grateful for. We are part of somebody else's plan; a better plan, from a Better Planner. His plan is better than we could invent ourselves in a million years.

Gratitude is one of the best parts of the plan.

Even though things haven't gone according to "MY" plan, I am grateful and excited to see what God has in store for us! What are you thankful for this year???

24 week MFM appointment

Today was my monthly MFM ultrasound appointment. At these ultrasounds, lots of measurements are taken of each baby to make sure they're growing as they should (or to determine if there are any concerns). Each appointment takes about 1.5-2 hours, and most of the time I can't tell what's going on b/c the pictures are of super small details (like the base of the brain, kidneys, arm/leg bones, etc). I've been told that as these appointments continue, it will be less & less comfortable for me because A) the babies are getting bigger and there is less room for them (obviously) B) they will have to push harder on me to find some of the measurements & C) the bigger I get, the more uncomfortable is it to lay down for long periods of time (plus more restroom breaks are necessary.

I haven't had any problems in the past, but today was a little rough in the beginning. After only laying down for a few minutes, I started to get really light headed, nauseous & started sweating. The tech immediately noticed that I wasn't doing well & stopped long enough for me to sit up, catch my breath then lay on my side to get the blood flowing again. I'm grateful that I didn't pass out and was able to stay on my sides most of the appt, especially because I was all by myself & didn't know what I would have done! Kris has had jury duty all week and was unable to make it to this appt - the first he's missed yet! :( I definitely missed him, but knew I'd be getting enough pictures and information to share with him.

Well the babies have definitely been growing & I was told that I make "big babies" .. AWESOME!! A, B, & C each weigh 1lb 10oz, 1lb 7oz & 1lb 9oz respectively .. much bigger than is expected for triplets at this point & on the higher end for a singleton! I'll definitely take the big babies since I won't have to carry them 40 weeks - the bigger the better in my book! :) Overall, it was another successful ultrasound & we were able to get almost every measurement needed, just a few stubborn little ones! Here are some profile/face pictures of my little chunkers!

As usual, Miss A was the super cooperative one - posing & moving to show every angle. She is on my lower left side, facing up with her feet near my cervix.

Mr B was cooperative for most measurements, but didn't want to show his profile or face so this picture makes him look like an alien. His head is resting on my cervix, facing my spine, with his feet above my belly button. (If you can't find him, his head is towards the bottom, facing the front (eyes are the dark spots), with his chin on the left, forehead on his right).

Miss C wouldn't let us see all of her spine today (we'd gotten the measurements & checked it all out at the last appt), or show her face, but we got a great profile picture & were able to measure all angles of her heart (last appt we couldn't see the right side). However, I was also told that this poor thing had the smallest "home" & was being smashed between her brother & my rib cage (B also had his feet on her tummy & his butt in her face ... I have a feeling these two will either be the closest or will hate each other from all the kicking, etc they've been doing to each other in the womb!).

Needless to say, we have been blessed again by a wonderful ultrasound! Thank you all for your continued prayers. Another routine OB appt next Tuesday- can't wait to see my little turkeys before Thanksgiving. There are LOTS (at least 3) things to be thankful for this year!!!! :)

23 weeks

This Tuesday (11/09) we had an appt with our OB to make sure everything is on track. I also had to get my glucose screen to make sure I wasn't at risk for gestational diabetes. The sugary drink wasn't as bad as I had heard, but it definitely wasn't enjoyable! I felt like I was drinking pure syrup & had to wash it down with some water afterwards! YUCK! While I waited the hour for my body to process everything, we met with the doctor and had our ultrasound (pics & video hopefully to follow). Everything is still going according to schedule & I was reminded for the hundredth time to take it easy at work, rest as much as possible & take care of myself. I was also told that we needed to start looking for (& interviewing) a pediatrician .. ALREADY?!?!?! That seems a bit too soon for me, considering the fact that we haven't even purchased furniture & still haven't really caught up with the idea of having triplets! That'll just have to come at another time .. along with everything else! :)

The ultrasound was uneventful (just as we like it), but we didn't get much information since the tech wasn't our usual girl (she spends extra time & gets lots of pictures/angles & measures regardless of what the MFM ultrasounds say). We got to see and hear all 3 beautiful heartbeats as well as their squished "rooms" - less & less area for them to move each week! A fun surprise for us at the end though was being able to see Miss C yawn a couple of times! It was just the most adorable thing & I started tearing up at how precious she was. What a genius she is already!!! :) Kris didn't catch it the first time and was kind of bummed because the ultrasounds are so hard to see with 3 babies all squished together (esp when one's face is next to the other's butt), but that's why I ask for a DVD of every appt. He got to see it later & I will be able to share the video with family & friends (& the babies when they're older)!

My glucose results came back normal (in the "perfect" range actually) so that was a relief! I have an appt with my MFM next Thursday to get measurements and again check to make sure everyone is growing as they should so I'll update again after that!

After this appt I decided to go to Babies R Us and open a registry. I knew it would be overwhelming, but I was so unprepared! Since most of my close friends do not have children, I'm sort of the "trailblazer" in this department and am doing this with the help of online "must have" lists for multiples and input from family, friends, coworkers, etc. I started adding little things at first to ease myself into it, but soon found myself in the car seat aisle..... I asked the employee if she knew which car seat fit in the triple stroller frame I have since I couldn't remember the exact name (it's a SnugRide, but there are a ton of different sizes). She started pulling a few out & trying them in the bases, etc & I felt a panic attack coming on. I haven't touched a car seat in years & they've changed so much since I was a babysitter!!! I started to tear up & told the girl that I'd have to figure it out later b/c I couldn't deal with the car seats at that time and left her stranded in the middle of the aisle with all the car seats on the ground. I tried to go back to adding small items like diapers & wipes since those are "easier" to decide about (ok well technically there are just as many options & still overwhelming...). Needless to say, I was out after about 1.5 hours (which felt more like 5) & only a few more tears. The registry lady was shocked at how little I'd added, but I told her I'd do more of it online when I wasn't completely overwhelmed & about to break down. Maybe I'll try to add a few more things this weekend..... Wish me luck!

Last night, my dad was in town for some business & stayed with us. He took Kris & I to dinner at my FAVORITE restaurant (if you don't know, we are NOT friends!) .. CHILI'S!!!! When we got home I was able to show my dad the DVD from the ultrasound so he could see the babies move, their heartbeats and the most precious yawn EVER!!! What a miracle technology is! Also, while my food was digesting, I guess Miss C got a taste of something good because she started kicking up a storm (what a mommy's girl .. already a big fan of Chili's)! Both my dad & Kris got to feel it for the first time - huge smiles all around! :) I've been feeling the babies kick & move for a while (now that I know what "it" feels like I can look back a few months & realize that it was the same feeling I couldn't quite describe) so it was amazing to be able to share it with the 2 guys I love the most in this world & see their reactions! Can't wait for the others to kick enough (Mr. B kicks a lot in the evenings, but not consistent enough for others to feel & Miss A hardly kicks me hard enough to feel .. guess she isn't too ready to have all the attention on her yet!) :)

What a great week this has been!!!

22 week update

Let me the first to say that this pregnancy is going WAAAAAAAY to fast! Where did the time go??? We have no baby furniture purchased, haven't organized anything, don't have a "nursery" (technically we know where it will be, but it's currently our guest room) & from the looks of our house, you'd never know that in a few months THREE babies will be here causing chaos! Guess we'd better get started .. these babies won't wait for us!

I have been blessed that at each appointment, everything continues to look good - even our OB is surprised at how smoothly things are going (thank you God!!). I've now gained 30 pounds, which according to my OB is on the "low end" for having triplets, so I guess that's a blessing since I (hopefully) have 2-3 more months to go! I just hope it all comes off as easily as it went on!! :) We continue to have at least 3 appointments and ultrasounds each month & each time we get to see & hear the heartbeats of our little ones. The babies are looking great & are super active (although I haven't consistently felt them .. it's starting to be more pronounced so I KNOW it's them .. still such a strange thought for me!). Their personalities are pretty distinct at the appointments so I'm curious to see if that's how they'll be outside the womb!

The babies are almost a pound each & by the end of this week, should be closer to 1.5 lbs and are as long as spaghetti squash (one of my favorite foods)! This week their lips, eyelids, and eyebrows are becoming more distinct, and they're even developing tiny tooth buds beneath their gums. Their eyes have formed, but irises (the colored part of the eye) still lack pigment. They also have fine hair (lanugo) that covers their bodies and the deep wrinkles on their skin. The pancreas — essential for the production of some important hormones — is also developing steadily.

Last week the babies started their first day of "school" :) The teacher in me is always looking for new ways to give my babies the "leg up" they need so when my principal told me about a product her daughter used during her pregnancy I wanted to do it too! The "curriculum" is called BabyPlus & is a belt I wear twice a day for an hour each time that plays various percussion beats. The "research" (not sure how scientific it is) is that other noises (ie classical music, etc) is too complex for the babies' brains to process so these sounds vary slightly from my heartbeat (the main noise they hear 24/7) and supposedly it helps stimulate the babies' brains to decipher the difference between my beat & the new sound. Claims include: babies who more readily nurse, have an increased ability to self-sooth, and are alert/responsive/interactive/relaxes as well as later on hitting developmental milestones sooner, enhanced intellectual ability, longer attention spans, improved school readiness, and greater creativity/independence. Who knows if this will even help, but it doesn't hurt and isn't an inconvenience so it's definitely worth a try - after all those claims, how could you not want to try it out??? I do know that when we "have school" I feel the babies move the most - even so much so that I can feel it with my hand! Only time will tell I guess.....

No appointments this week, but the next 3 weeks we will so I plan on resting up while I still can! Hopefully we will get more accomplished around the house & will at least have a crib or something for the babies to sleep in by the time they arrive! :)

high-risk ultrasound

Here are my babies (A, B, C - girl, boy, girl) at their first high risk ultrasound appt.

At 16w4d (Sept 22nd) I had my first high-risk ultrasound with Dr. Mastrobattista. I was told by my OB that it would take about 1.5-2 hours because they measure almost everything in detail to make sure things are ok, find any abnormalities, etc. It was a bit nerve-wracking lying there while they took measurements, pictures, etc & rarely said anything. When the MFM (maternal fetal medicine specialist) came in to discuss the ultrasound, she had few words and just gave me the specifics: baby A (girl) & baby B (boy) were sharing a placenta and baby C (girl) had a 2-vessel umbilical cord. She went on to reassure me that nothing looked out of the ordinary, the babies were measuring on schedule and all body parts, fluids, etc were where they should be and looked great. She did go on to explain that each of those issues ranged from mild to severe. Babies who share a placenta can run the risk of one twin becoming a "donor" & giving all nutrients to the other twin (called twin to twin transfusion syndrome - TTTS), but that is typically only with same gender twins (most instances are with identical twins); however, because my babies involved are of opposite genders, they are obviously fraternal and can't have TTTS so our concern would be to monitor the sizes of the babies & their fluid levels to make sure one doesn't have more than the other. She also explained that the 2-vessel umbilical cord could lead to complications with kidneys or the heart, but that "C" has both kidneys that are functioning properly and her heart has all chambers & is also functioning as it should. There were no concerns with the babies and Dr. Mastrobattista said that everything looked great. We got lots of baseline data to use in follow-up appts and will definitely be monitoring the babies to make sure they develop on schedule.

After this appt, I decided to do some research about what the MFM told me so I could take any and all of my questions to my OB the following week. I didn't want to do too much research and scare myself with only negative information, because that would only raise my stress level (not advised!) and would serve no real purpose. Most of the research I found focused on the positives of each issue so I honestly wasn't too concerned. I wanted to wait & speak with my OB before freaking out - she always gives me plenty of information and answers EVERY question I have ever had.

About a week later I went to my OB with 2 pages of questions. :) She explained that the MFM hadn't seen any of my previous charts because she was only interested in comparing her ultrasounds, but that the MFM sent all information to my OB so she could compare it with previous appts. I first asked the OB about the shared placenta, but she quickly dismissed that and told me that "A" & "B" were NOT sharing a placenta but that they were pressed together and very close (can be mistaken for a shared placenta if no previous ultrasounds were reviewed). That was a bit of a relief because it was the issue I knew the least about (technically, no one really knew anything about it because there have only been a few instances of fraternal twins sharing a placenta - one with boy/girl twins sharing). I then asked about the 2-vessel umbilical cord on "C" and was told that right now everything looks great. An average umbilical cord has 3 vessels (2 arteries bringing nutrients in and 1 vein taking waste out - my baby has 1 artery & 1 vein), but 2-vessel cords are still very common. My OB told me that we will still be monitoring this baby closely to make sure she is growing and at the high risk ultrasounds we will be monitoring the flow through the cord to make sure things are moving as they should. Statistically, she should be the smallest baby, but she's the middle in weight - what a trooper!!!

Overall, I left the OB appt feeling very confident and secure in my doctors. I honestly can't believe how blessed I am. These babies are growing on track and progressing just as they should - they have overcome every obstacle so far and continue to amaze me! I am grateful for all of my appts because it provides more opportunities to see my babies as well as allows my doctors to monitor the progress each time. I look forward to my next high risk appt so we can compare their measurements from the month before and hopefully will not have any more "issues" pop up - but if we do I am confident that Kris, I, and the babies will all overcome it together, as the little family we are!

Please continue to pray that the babies will grow as they should and that they will be protected from anything that may harm them. Also, please pray that I will remain in good health and will remember to rest and take it easy even when I feel I could push myself a bit more. Thank you all for your support, prayers, and encouragement!!

updates & pictures

I realize I haven't updated the blog in a LONG time, but honestly it still hasn't sunk in. I feel BEYOND blessed to be pregnant .... and with THREE .... I can't even put my emotions into words. Each ultrasound and appointment has been very reassuring - things are going smoothly and everyone is growing and developing on schedule! Their personalities are already starting to show and it just cracks me up each time - I can't wait to see what they're like in person!! Here are some ultrasound pictures of my little babies. Enjoy!

The first official pictures of our babies! They were the only "good" embryos out of the 18 that fertilized and therefore were all implanted. We were told there was about a 5% chance all 3 would take ..... ummmmmm I'm going to have to disagree with that! :)

3 weeks later we saw 3 individual sacs - what a crazy feeling!!! Nothing to see just yet!

Here they are 9w5d & starting to take shape...

This is one of the clearest pictures of all 3 together in one image at 10w2d :)

Babies at 13w3d - first real showing of their personalities. "C" (top) is one of my girls looking at the screen (she was sleeping but looked like she had restless leg b/c one foot kept twitching - like her mommy!), "B" is my poor little guy stuck between his sisters lying on his back (he was super uncooperative & kept moving away from the monitor & kicking so we couldn't get many good shots of him - he'd better get used to pictures if he's in this family!), "A" (bottom) is my other little girl laying on her tummy (she found an extra comfy spot on a pulsing artery, that rocked her back & forth .. so precious!)

... and babies make 5!

Today was a big one in more than a few ways! Kris turned 34 & we found out that we are pregnant with triplets! Last week at our ultrasound, the doctor showed us TWO heartbeats and said the 3rd sac had "something" in it ("most likely it's a blood clot & won't develop... blah blah blah...") but we were waiting until our appt this afternoon to see if the 3rd one developed into anything or if we were "only" having twins. Well at today's appointment I pretty much had to drag the information out of him! As he was doing the ultrasound, Dr. Haddad said everything "looked good", so then I asked about the 3rd sac that was smaller last week & how big it measured today. When he told me it was "on schedule" I got a bit nervous. Then I asked "but we still only have two heartbeats?" .. Dr. H: "nope .. there are three". Ummmmm hello! That is pretty big information! Then he measured all 3 of them and it turns out the 3rd one is now 2 days further along (8w1d) than the other two (7w6d) - guess it was just taking its time developing! They all have strong heartbeats and are looking good. Tomorrow I will be 8 weeks .. man time sure is flying (ok not THAT fast, but still ...). I will start going to my regular OBGYN in the next few weeks since everything continues to come back as it should - once Dr. H releases me. I am supposed to finish my progesterone over the next few days then I will be ALL DONE with meds (besides my vitamins & prenatal). Whoo hoo!!!

Kris & I are both FULL of emotions at this point - scared, happy, excited, panicked, worried, etc but are VERY grateful that we have been so successful with the whole IVF process in general. We had a few "hiccups" along the way with the extra hysteroscopy, having only 3 come back viable after the PGD testing, etc but if this is the route we are meant to take in life then we can be sure that it will definitely NOT be a dull one! Now begins the financial freak out & me learning how to use coupons, save, etc - guess it's about time! :) Thanks for all your support & prayers - keep them coming .. we will definitely need them!

Once the shock wears off (if that ever happens) I will upload ultrasound pictures! Love you all!

July 9th (Friday - 22dpt)

Today we had another appointment to check everything out & make sure it's all still going according to schedule - we were hoping to hear the heartbeats today but it was still too early! :( oh well .. maybe next time! We were able to still see all three of the sacs - still growing as they should! I am 5 weeks 6 days along today. Two of the sacs were measuring on schedule at 5w6d and one was a few days behind at 5w2d. We were able to actually see two of the embryos so we're pretty confident that at least two will develop further. I'm going back next week for a follow-up appointment so maybe we'll be able to see the heartbeats then! We're hoping that everything continues as it should, but are aware that we might still lose 1, 2, or all 3 of the embryos. Here is a statistic I found according to the miscarriage association: "If the scan picks up a heartbeat and the baby appears to be the right size according to your dates, this can be very reassuring. Research has shown that if you see a heartbeat at 6 weeks of pregnancy, the chances of the pregnancy continuing are 78%. A heartbeat at 8 weeks increases the chance of a continuing pregnancy to 98% and at 10 weeks to 99.4%. So things could still go wrong, but as long as there is a heartbeat, the risk of miscarriage decreases as the weeks go by." We ask that you keep us in your prayers over the next few weeks since they are crucial for our babies' development! Thank you for joining us on this journey!!

July 6th (Tuesday - 19dpt)

Today we had our first ultrasound appointment since the transfer to see how many sacs have developed. I am 5 wks 3 days pregnant & according to the ultrasound there are 3 sacs that are developing right on schedule (two are 5w2d & one is 5w1d along)!!!!!! Holy cow! Now, that doesn't necessarily mean that all 3 will have heartbeats and go on to develop into full term babies, just that all 3 of the embryos are developing as they should right now. My hCG levels came back & the nurse said they are still increasing as they should (I don't have a specific number because they don't have measurements for numbers over 5,000, but if they're where they're supposed to be, they're probably close to 20,000). We are scheduled to go back for another ultrasound this Friday to see the heartbeats & do more blood work. I am still nervous & can't believe things are going this smoothly! It almost seems too good to be true, and I'm hoping it isn't, but of course there are no guarantees. Still praying HARD that they develop as they should (or that we aren't given more than we can handle)!

Here we go!!!

July 1st (Thursday - 14 dpt)

Even though they've been telling me I'm pregnant for the past week, I've still been doubting it & have been too scared to take a pregnancy test. This morning I found the guts to take one & was rewarded with 2 bright pink lines IMMMEDIATELY. What a strange feling to be so freaked out from a stupid little test .. but it was a super nice reward too :) Glad I waited!

Well my hCG levels increased more than 4 times from Monday (from 561 to 2,389)!!!!! Holy cow! Because my levels are increasing so much naturally they've taken me off my estrogen pills & patch. Hopefully everything continues to increase as it should - it will be interesting to see how mmuch it increases without any extra "help." I've been reading a few different sites & most of them have been comparing my hCG levels to that of women with twins and triplets - what a crazy life that would be! I'm still anxious and won't really be confident until I can see the heartbeat(s) which will be in a couple weeks. Yet again I "hurry up & wait" - but I know that in the end it will be worth it. Thanks for all your support & encouragement!

June 28th (Monday - 11dpt)

Today I went for more blood work. I was a bit nervous because on Friday the nurse told me that I was "probably" pregnant so I was trying all weekend not to get ahead of myself, but I also told myself that the nurses wouldn't risk telling me that news if they weren't confident that it was highly likely. All weekend I had intense symptoms (stabbing lower back pain, exhaustion, tenderness, nausea, etc) so that was an encouragement, but since they were so intense it worried me that I'd make it an entire pregnancy! Still I wanted to see the results from today and compare them to make sure they were increasing the way they were supposed to and help calm my nerves.

Well my blood work came back with great numbers again & the hCG levels have tripled since Friday (561). The nurse said that our official pregnancy test is still this Thursday although they're pretty confident I am pregnant. If they're right, I'm 4.5 weeks pregnant (5 weeks this upcoming Saturday). Hopefully next week we'll go in for an ultrasound to see how many sacs there are then a week or 2 after that we'll go in to see the heartbeats (hopefully!). I still can't believe how smoothly everything is going and hope that it continues to (minus all the symptoms!).

June 25th (Friday - 8dpt)

I went for blood work this morning before I headed to San Antonio for my brother's fiancee's bridal shower, to mainly check my progesterone & estradiol (estrogen) levels and possibly make changes with my patch, pill & suppository if need be. The nurse told me that it was probably still too early to look at my hCG levels (the pregnancy hormone) but they still test them to get a baseline & to monitor them. Well...... she called back with the results about an hour ago and said that all my levels are looking good (my progesterone was >20 and my estradiol was >2000 .. all great numbers!) & to continue with everything I'm doing (pills 3 times a day, suppository daily and my patch every 3 days .. whew!). I heard all the girls in the office behind her saying "tell her!" so of course I asked what they were talking about & she said that it was still very early, but by the looks of my hCG levels, I am probably pregnant. :) :) :) :) :) eeeeeeeeeeeeeek!!!!! My current hCG levels are at 182 (on Monday they were 1.86) - in general hCG levels double every 2-3 days (about 85% of pregnancies double every 72 hours), so I'm not sure if this means I'm more likely to have multiples, or if this is a normal level for a single fetus). I'm going back in on Monday for regular blood work (that'll help compare the levels) and the "official" pregnancy test is still scheduled for Thursday so I'm hoping that everything continues as it should.

When I got the phone call, I was at lunch with my family and when I came back to the table I was crying so I of course told them, but I didn't really want to tell anyone else because it's obviously still too early and I want to wait until at least the official test next Thursday. I ask that you continue to pray that God's will be done and that we are content in whatever that may be!

reality check

While on bed rest, I've been able to catch up on all my DVR'd shows as well as play around on the computer (haven't made it to my summer reading list, but will eventually!). Yesterday I was watching "Giuliana & Bill" which is a realty show about a celebrity couple who is dealing with infertility issues (they never reveal what they are exactly, just that they've been trying for a while to get pregnant). It shows them going through a failed IUI attempt and the stress and emotions surrounding that. After the IUI attempt, her RE suggests they try IVF. Giuliana becomes very concerned about the whole procedure and after hearing a little information about it, she decides it's too invasive for the woman and claims that she "could never go through that." I guess she ended up doing more research or speaking with people who have gone through it, because when I searched her name today, I found out that she is currently going through her first round of IVF - how quickly we change our opinion when presented with all the facts! To me, this was a very interesting perspective since I never really thought about it being too invasive on me - it was just the best route for Kris and I to take in order to increase our chances in one day possibly becoming parents. We met with specialist after specialist who all encouraged us to look into IVF and PGD and we are BEYOND pleased that we did so much research before naturally trying to conceive - it saved us years of heartache and disappointment and for that we are very grateful.

I'm not going to lie, it has been an invasive procedure (physically, emotionally, financially, etc) but we wouldn't change a thing (even now without knowing the final outcome). We have had confirmation after confirmation that we are dong everything in our power and doing all the right things (especially when the PGD results came back - I mean, who needs more proof???).

I understand that IVF is still a very private matter to most people but regardless of what our outcome is, I hope that with our journey, we will be able to provide some information for those ignorant people out there who continue to judge those of us struggling with infertility or conception issues and choose to go through IUI, IVF, PGD, etc. Some people like to say that we're "playing God" by doing IVF and PGD and that is their (hurtful) opinion, but for us, we feel at peace with this decision and believe that too many things have fallen into place for it just to be a "coincidence" or a "rash decision" on our part (for example, meeting with multiple genetic specialists who have proven a medical necessity for this type of testing, as well as having the top PGD in vitro clinic in Houston located minutes from our house... ). Kris and I realize that we might not be meant to have biological children, but I know that we have a strong desire to be parents and will go through whatever measures necessary (be it in vitro, adoption, whatever) to achieve it.

Thank you in advance for all your support these next few weeks as we wait for the results! XOXO

hurry up & wait

I thought I would have been a nervous wreck the night before and day of my transfer, but I have had felt calm and at peace. I slept soundly and woke up feeling refreshed. When I went downstairs to take my meds, I saw a card and jewelry box from my wonderful husband. Inside was a GORGEOUS diamond heart necklace for "good luck" to take me through the transfer and these next few weeks (or months if it's in God's will....). Of course I started crying even before I read his kind words or saw the necklace - again, he is so good to me and I couldn't have asked for a better husband!

Here is a close up of the beautiful necklace!

I was a little nervous on the way to the surgery center because my doctor had a family emergency and wasn't able to do the transfer, but I know that the other doctors are very competent and would do just as amazingly as Dr. Haddad. We met with the new doctor for a few minutes (he did one of my hysteroscopies so I felt comfortable with him) and he told us that only 3 out of the 18 fertilized embryos were genetically good. While it was a bit disappointing for us to have such a low number, it ended up being such a blessing and an affirmation that we were doing the right thing. We were told that about 2/3 would be bad but were definitely surprised when it ended up being much more severe (5/6 bad). Looking back, I am so grateful I pushed for all the tests over the past year and that we waited until we knew things were safe before trying to get pregnant. I was encouraged that these measures helped spare us multiple miscarriages and disappointment. We have definitely been blessed by all the medical advances and are beyond grateful for all the specialists in this city who have helped get us to this point! We can only hope that things keep progressing as they're supposed to.

We ended up not finding out the genders of the implanted embryos. When the doctor told us there were only 3, he asked if we wanted to put in 2 and freeze the remaining one, but since Dr. Haddad had always planned on implanting 3, we decided put them all in (which means that if none of them take and we wanted to do it again, we'd have to start the whole IVF process over from the beginning). However, the doctor had said that if we choose to put 2 in, he'd have us choose which genders to implant - leading us to believe that there were at least one of each gender. At least there will still be some surprise elements in this journey (how many take, what genders, etc). When we made the final decision to put all 3 in, the doctor also told us that he had to legally warn us of the possibility of having higher order multiples and asked if we would be interested in reducing the number, should that happen. Our decision is to keep all embryos that develop - even if they split. The doctor told us that since 2 of the embryos had already "hatched" (medical term) they would most likely not be able to split; however one hasn't yet and statistically speaking the final one COULD split, technicallly producing 4 embryos. This is very unlikely but still a possibility. He of course warned us of the health risks on myself as well as the babies, but we feel that even with the financial, physical, and emotional strain, God wouldn't give us something we can't handle.

During the transfer, Kris was able to come into the surgery room with me. I was completely awake and we were able to see the embryos being placed in my uterus (via ultrasound). All the nurses were impressed with how "textbook-looking" my uterus was and said that it was the nicest they'd every seen (how sweet!). We were given pictures of all 3 embryos as well as a picture of them placed in my uterus. I wasn't in much pain, but it definitely was a strange feeling thinking that I have embryos inside and could possibly be pregnant!

After the transfer I had to lay with my feet slightly raised, for 30ish minutes, then after all my vitals were good, they sent me on my way! Here I am in the recovery area with my pictures (& probably feeling good with the Valium finally kicking in .. I was laughing at all of Kris' jokes, so I know I was feeling the meds!) :)

Our next step is to just wait... I'm on bedrest the next few days (I'm not even supposed to shower or bathe, so I'll have to get comfortable with sponge baths! ewwwww!). I have a blood work appt on Monday and will let you know how it goes after that! We won't know if we're officially pregnant or not for about 2 weeks and won't know how many (if any) embryos took. Continue to keep us in your prayers. We are so grateful for all our family & friends who are genuinely happy and supportive of us - we hope to have good news to share in a few weeks, but know that you will be there to support us if our news isn't as positive. Love you to all! XOXO

update round 2

I spoke with the nurse today who told me that 18 out of the 19 eggs they got at the retrieval were fertilized. Holy cow - not too shabby if you ask me! Guess Kris has "super sperm" :) TMI .. sorry! I'm just hoping with this many fertilized, we will have a better percentage of "genetically sound" embryos. We won't find out how many are usable until right before the transfer this Thursday morning, so I'll be a bit anxious these next few days. Started the Crinone (suppository) today & will stay on it for a few weeks & am looking forward to all that fun .. NOT! I'm finishing up with the Doxy and starting the Medrol Wednesday - with all these different meds, I feel like I'm a walking CVS .. hope it all works!

Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers this week. I'll update after Thursday & let you all know how it went (fingers crossed)!

update

This week has been a productive one and my body keeps responding well to all the injections. Thank goodness! I had a little bit of a scare at Wednesday's appt when they couldn't find my left ovary - apparently it moved to the right side (not a normal thing but it explained why I was in so much pain on that side)! So typical of my "hot mess" of a body, but after a few minutes, the nurse finally found it! Whew!

I had another BW/US appt today and my left ovary decided to cooperate & had moved back to the other side. After looking at everything, Dr. Haddad has officially decided to move the retrieval date up to this Saturday around 8am, which will also move the transfer up as well (next Thursday). I had my "trigger shot" tonight & started my Doxy pills (twice a day for 5 days). There's no going back now!

Please keep us in your prayers that everything continues to go smoothly & that my body keeps responding well to the meds. I can't help but get nervous about the retrieval and transfer so please pray for a peace of mind as well as wisdom for Dr. Haddad & his staff.

I will keep you all updated after Saturday

just a little prick

If it's not already obvious....my shots have started. We had our teaching appointment May 25th & that was a LOT of into to take in (how to "build" the syringes, combine meds, administer the shot(s), etc) - needless to say, it was quite overwhelming. The shots started June 1st after my baseline BW/US (bloodwork/ultrasound) appt. The nurse doing the US said that everything looked great and that if everything continues to work nicely, I should have a lot of mature eggs at the retrieval (let's just hope that they all fertilize and are "genetically good"!). According to my BW, Dr. H told me to take 75 IU of Follistim & 75 IU of Menopur (which, I've been told, is a lower than average dosage so I'm hoping that's a good sign).

Today I had another BW/US appt and the nurse doing the US seemed shocked at how my body was reacting ("wow, for such a low dose, you seem to be responding very well!") and some of the follicles on the eggs were much further along than is to be expected at this point. Yay! :) However, because not all eggs are maturing at the same pace, I was told to now start another daily shot (Ganirelix Acetate). This one hurt like hell (the meds are so thick that you can feel them going in & it stings for a few minutes afterwards) and bled a bit after removing the needle. I switch sides every night, but it still gets tender.

Almost immediately I felt a difference. Emotionally I am a wreck - I've cried at the stupid commercials with the oil-soaked animals, the MLB umpire Jim Joyce's apology for ruining that kid's perfect game, and I've also cried in Kroger after receiving a sweet text from a girlfriend. Tonight I started bawling after Kris came home with non-alcoholic wine and beer (don't laugh). Since I'm not supposed to be drinking, my wonderful husband has chosen to also stop drinking as a way to support me - how amazing is he????. He also has volunteered to come to my appointments with me, even when we had to get up at 7 on Saturday morning (most husbands don't go to the BW/US appts since there's really no reason for them to be there, but Kris wants to be a part of this and I can't even tell you how much this means to me ... getting emotional over here, sorry). Tonight, I'm starting to feel the physical effects of all the shots - I was told that I'd be able to feel my ovaries getting larger and that's exactly what's happening - pretty strange & hard to explain without getting too graphic (I'll spare you).

I have another appt Monday morning to see how my body is responding to all the meds and see if my retrieval/transfer dates need to be altered. I can't let you know how much I appreciate all your thoughts and prayers. I feel so honored to have such wonderful people in my life - my husband, family, in-laws, friends, etc. Thank you for being so supportive in so many ways!

overloaded....

This weekend my "drugs" arrived and thoroughly freaked me out. Here they all are - spread out on my counter.... you overwhelmed too???

Today was our "teaching appointment" at the RE where we learned how to prepare/administer all of the lovely injections and got a more finalized calendar - so much info and meds to remember .. hope I don't mix them up! It was very informative, and I left feeling much more at ease. To be honest, I was very scared about the appointment today and had a minor meltdown in the car on the way. It wasn't because of the injections (I don't have a problem with needles/shots), but mainly because of the uncertainty of the situation. I understand that nothing is a guarantee, but before, this whole process was so far in the future, it didn't seem so real. Now that the medicine has arrived and my calendar is finalized, it's definitely "real", and I'm scared. I'm scared that something will happen and we won't be able to proceed with the IVF process. I'm scared that the PGD testing will come back and tell us that none of the embryos are viable. I'm scared that none of it will work and we'll have to start over again (or go another route). But most of all, I'm scared that it will work and I will feel so guilty for my friends who have been unable to have children of their own. I don't want to be THAT person in their lives.... and I apologize to those of you if that happens (you know who you are)

Here's a breakdown of what we learned at the appointment (possible "TMI" .. sorry!):

- I finish birth control this week (I've been on it to suppress/control my cycle to ensure the best/most eggs will be retrieved)

- I go back next Tuesday (June 1st) to get my baseline ultrasound (US) & bloodwork (BW) and will start my injections that afternoon/evening .. I will probably have to go back every other day for US/BW for the first few weeks to monitor how my body is
reacting - thank God I won't miss school (gotta save my sick/personal days)

- I will only need to be doing injections for a few weeks, not months like I previously thought (whew!) and will be able to combine a few meds so it'll only be 1 injection instead of a few (however this could change depending on how I react .. could be more, could be less - more uncertainty .. yay!)

- I can give them to myself - double whew! (not that I didn't believe Kris could handle it, I just would prefer to be in control of this aspect... plus the thought of Kris getting near me with a needle is kinda scary)

- I will get the shots in my lower stomach instead of in my butt (another relief, although both areas have enough "padding") :) however I hope I don't bruise as badly as a few of my friends who've done it - oh well, I guess it'll be worth it!

- In addition to all the injections and suppositories, I will have the pleasure of taking 20-ish pills a day .. jealous yet?? :) I'm telling you .. I feel like a walking CVS, oh the things I will do to have a baby.....

- Kris' instructions for this whole process: take 2 pills/day for 10 days, then "leave a sample" on the day of my retrieval (yet ANOTHER example that guys have it easier than us girls..... NOT fair!)

The retrieval and transfer are still on schedule (ha!) but I have a gut feeling that it might change - it'd be my luck! Hope to have more news next week. Thanks for your support, prayers, & encouragement!

Here we go.......

I have been horrible about updating the blog but not too much has happened and I've been busy with work, so I figured I'd wait a bit, but I'm baaaaaaaack!

This past weekend (Mother's Day .. ironic??) I started taking my Birth Control and will continue taking it for 3 weeks. I talked with my nurse yesterday and set up my IVF calendar. I will start my injections and meds on June 1st, with the proposed retrieval around June 13th and the transfer around June 18th. At the end of this month, Kris & I will get trained on how to do the injections (not going to lie, but this part makes me SO nervous .. not sure if I want Kris stabbing me with needles!).

I hope that everything will go smoothly and as uneventfully as possible. I'm trying to stay positive and will keep you all updated as things progress. Thanks for all your support and continued encouragement as we deal with all the emotions surrounding this process!

second verse, same as the first

Friday I had my second hysteroscopy to make sure there wasn't any scar tissue left from the removed septum the first time. I feel like a pro at this aleady since I know the routine/procedure, what my side effects are, what my recovery should feel like, which veins to stick the IV in, etc. I did experience a first though when I was joking with the nurse about how if she missed my veins then she might as well go back to school since I've been told over & over how awesome my viens are (not to brag) & how easy they are to find, stick, etc. Well, I must have jinxed myself since she was horrible the first time, bruising my hand, making it bubble (sick) and shoving the IV in too far. When she was doing the other hand (since the first hand was unable to be used .. thanks lady), she did something that caused me to black out completely for a few seconds. I almost fell out of the chair and had to be woken up with the nurse waving make-shift "smelling salts" (alcohol pads)under my nose. I was sweating, shaking and disoriented. After a while, I was ready for the procedure and things aparently went smoothly after that. I must have also been pretty convincing coming out of anesthesia since I apparently convinced the Dr to give me a hydrocodone prescription since I was in such horrible pain last time and the Motrin they suggested did nothing. I haven't been in much pain at all and am so thankful for that! I will also be able to work out (lightly) on Monday .. thank goodness!

Saturday I was feeling great and able to make it to my best friend's bridal shower and enjoyed her amazing family (as always)! That evening, my mother-in-law brought dinner over & we had such an awesome evening hanging out and eating delicious food.

I have been blessed with wonderful friends and family. I am so grateful for everyone who tells me that they've read my blog, have a similar story, or have been praying for Kris & I. Moments like that help me get through the rough times and give me the enouragement to remember that I am not alone in this journey! :) Thank you all!

mommies make everything better

I've been having a rough week and got an amazing e-mail from my mom this morning. I wanted to share a bit of her wisdom in the hopes that others will benefit from it as well.

I have found that God allows people in my life that I may not want but that I need. Life is a LOVE LAB. You're in the School of Love. It's really all about love. I used to believe it was all about the TRUTH AND BEING RIGHT. Love is the greatest thing (1 Cor 13). I hope you learn it sooner than I did. [People] may be in your life to teach you how to love better, how to let go, how to forgive & accept forgiveness, tolerance, etc. .....who knows what else. It is the hard way, but it is the only way! It doesn't take any effort to love those who love you, does it?

Be careful and guard your heart dear. Don't let anger, resentment, pride and bitterness be the root that take over your beautiful garden of life.

"Above all else, guard your heart for everything you do flows from it." Proverbs 4:23

"Love is patient, kind, does not envy, does not boast,, is not proud, not rude, not self-seeking, it is not easily angered,, it keeps no record of wrongs. Does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth...always hopes..." 1 Cor. 13: 4-7

"Hatred stirs up dissension, but love covers over all wrongs." Provers 10:12

More love and grace to you, mom


Rememner natalie His love and grace flows down and covers you inside so you may give it to others. He is your perfect peace........Make room for Him. It will comes easier to love those in your life! See you soon!


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I told you she's amazing!!!!!!

A few thoughts.....

This week has been a long one ... in more ways than one. I have been in a lot of pain and discomfort since the hysteroscopy and am ready for it all to be over. The first few days after, I used a heating pad and ice packs multiple times a day as well as taking a ton of Motrin (supposedly that would help .. but it didn't). I was told by my Dr to take it easy, stay on bed rest for the weekend and see how I feel after that. Of course being the workout addict that I am, I only took 2 days off & was back to my regular routine on Sunday. The next few days I was in even worse pain - intense cramping and nausea. Anything I ate or drank made me sick and the nausea came in extreme waves. I slept with a heating pad and icepacks every night. :( I called my Dr on Thursday and he told me that all these symptoms were typical of the hysteroscopy (that my body is trying to heal itself and cover the scar left behind by the removed septum) and all the food issues were likely related to the Estradiol (estrogen) I'm taking. I have to take 3 days off of working out (which is absolutely KILLING me) and see if that helps everything get better. All I can say is that I'm ready for these symptopms to be over & get back to normal!

On a positive note, I have been beyond blessed by all of the support and encouragement I have received from so many people this past week. I have been touched by all of the stories I have heard and feel so honored that people have opened up and told me their success/struggling stories. Thank you for your honesty - I hope that my story continues to encourage you as your stories do for me.

Of course I know that not everyone who reads this blog really has a genuine interest or concern with what's going on in my life - and that really pisses me off. If you're reading my blog only because you enjoy reading about the struggles I'm going through and hope to hear me discouraged, then you'll have to look harder since the purpose of my blog is to A) provide information for my family & close friends about what I'm going through and B) encourage those who are going through similar things since I really benefitted from talking with others who are going through the IVF process as well. My blog is not "cute," "silly," or whatever you want to call it - this is my personal diary about all the obstacles I'm having to face just to become a mother and I'd expect a little respect. Thanks.

never a dull moment

Today was my hysteroscopy and for the most part, everything went well. I'm still a little loopy from the anesthesia (I've never been totally put asleep so that was an experience itself!). I basically just felt like I'd taken a long nap .. the last thing I remember is being in the operating room and the anesthesiologist telling me to think about a nice vacation spot, then I felt the "burning sensation" creep up my right arm & through my chest. Five seconds later I felt the tube being pulled out of my throat and I was in a totally different room, on a different bed - Talk about some amazing meds! :)

While I was in the recovery room with Kris, Dr. Haddad came in and told me that while he was doing the hysteroscopy, they found some skin that was blocking (or close to ... I don't really remember since I was still really groggy) one of the Fallopian tubes and he had to cut it out (I think he used a laser but I honestly have no idea). He said that the little piece of skin could cause recurrent miscarriages as well as IVF complications (i.e. interfering with embryo implantation). I now must take 10 days worth of Estrogen and 5 days worth of Progesterone to help create a new lining in my uterus to cover the scars from today's surgery. I will go back in a few weeks to have yet another hysteroscopy done to make sure there isn't any scar tissue left. I am still in a little bit of pain but have stayed in bed all afternoon and only plan on moving to the couch this evening so hopefully I will recover quickly and be back to normal and back to working out soon!

I have gone through a wide range of emotions today (and I'm sure the meds have helped the highs & lows of that roller coaster ride....), but at the end of the day I am at peace. I spoke with my mom after the procedure and she helped me realize that I too, am in the grieving process even though I haven't necessarily had a miscarriage. I am grieving the loss of not being able to have a "normal" pregnancy like so many other women. Kris and I don't get to "have fun trying" or be genuinely surprised by a pregnancy. Everything is preplanned, mapped out on a calendar, discussed with multiple doctors, etc - even the gender could be pre-selected! My mom explained that in the grieving process, using the phrase "I had hoped......" helps one express their feelings and move from one stage to the next. Well, I had hoped that so many things would have gone differently, but looking back I am grateful for these challenges and know that God wouldn't have put them in my life if I wasn't able to handle them. I have grown closer to my husband, discovered my true friends, and found an amazing support system right across the street! :) Deep down I also had hoped that some miracle would occur and I'd end up pregnant without having to go through all the IVF, but every appointment, labwork and ultrasound proved me wrong. My girlfriend, Michelle and I made a "resolution" this year to attempt to find the "silver lining" in every challenging situation and today my "silver lining" was the fact that had Kris and I NOT decided to do IVF we never would have discovered this piece of skin that could have caused so many problems for us had we decided to try on our own first. So many of my issues are strongly connected to miscarriage (MTHFR, reciprocal translocation, today's findings....) and another "silver lining" is the fact that I have not had to go through a recent miscarriage to discover all these issues. This is one time I am VERY grateful for my OCD and obsession with getting everything organized (just ask to see my "binder" .. even Dr. Haddad was impressed with it) and planned out beforehand - leaving no proverbial stone unturned.

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers - I honestly felt an eerie peace while at the appointment today and know that there were many wonderful people thinking of me and praying for Dr. Haddad. I am beyond grateful to have you in my life!

New Year, New Adventures

I am excited to see what 2010 has in store for this Cherry family. This is my first experience with blogging and I am eager to share my story - both the joys and sorrows. I will try to catch you up on the past year without too many medical details, and of course if you have any questions, please feel free to ask!



Kris & I had considered getting pregnant at the end of last year, but we had a few setbacks once I started getting routine blood work done in the Spring so we pushed our time frame back a bit. My main purpose for starting that far in advance was because I really didn't have an idea on what issues, if any, ran in my family. I have no sisters, aunts, or cousins to talk with and according to my mom and grandmothers, there was no history of complications. Much to my dismay my OBGYN called me around July and informed me that I had something called PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) - this was the beginning of my research ..... PCOS is a hormonal condition of unknown cause that affects about 5-10% of women. It can be pretty confusing because PCOS is not always characterized by polycystic ovaries, but rather by a range of issues that can include: irregular periods, acne, excess hair growth, infertility and the possible development of diabetes. After getting this diagnosis, I did as much research as possible and found a variety of other conditions that were connected to PCOS.



The next month my sister-in-law, who was almost 7 months pregnant, lost her baby and discovered she had a single copy of the MTHFR C677 mutation. I did even more research and found that there were some connections with MTHFR and PCOS. For my own peace of mind, I pushed my OBGYN do a even more blood work (19 vials) and test for a variety of conditions. When those results came back, I was informed I had a single copy of the A1298C MTHFR mutation. MTHFR stands for Methlyenetetrahydrofolate reductace. Heterozygosity (single copy - from one parent) of both mutations occurs in about 20% of the Caucasian population. Homozygosity (double copy - from both parents) results in a 2-3 fold risk of folate-sensitive neural tube defects. Both mutations have been implicated as risk factors for neural tube defects (such as spinal bifida, etc) and unexplained, recurrent embryo losses in early pregnancy (although this connection is still pretty controversial). The A1298C mutation has also been linked to the development of cancers and leukaemias, as well Alzheimer's disease and migraines. Because MTHFR mutations affect the absorption of Folic Acid in the body, my doctor prescribed I take 4mg of Folic Acid daily in addition to my regular vitamins.



About a month later the last of the my test results came back (chromosomal) and yet another label was given - I am a Reciprocal (Balanced) Chromosomal Translocation carrier on the long arms of chromosomes 7 & 16 (that's a mouthfull!). I met with two different Genetic Counselors and discussed the risks, my options and did even more research. A chromosome translocation is an abnormality caused by rearrangement of parts between nonhomologous chromosomes - in my case, parts of chromosomes 7 & 16 have basically switched places. It is harmless to me, but because I am a carrier, I have an increased risk of creating gametes with unbalanced chromosome translocations which lead to miscarriage or children with mental retardation and/or birth defects due to the imbalance of chromosomes 7 & 16 (because there could be too much or too little chromosomal (genetic) material). My risks are much higher than my age-related risks and therefore I have a medical necessity for something called PGD.



PGD (Preimplantation Genetic Diagnosis) is a reproductive technology used to identify genetic defects in embryos created through in vitro fertiization (IVF) cycles. This technique is used when one or both parents have a known genetic abnormality. Basically, before implanting embryos, they will be tested to make sure they have the correct number of chromosomes and are not unbalanced - therefore only using normal embryos to create a pregnancy. Kris & I have decided after much consideration that we will be going through the whole IVF/PGD process to help reduce the risks associated with everything I have been diagnosed with. Our insurance is absolutely amazing and will be covering it all - such a blessing and answer to prayer!



Last week I had a vaginal ultrasound to check my ovaries and make sure there were no cysts, check the eggs, etc. Everything looked great - yes! Tomorrow (01/15/10) I will be having a hysteroscopy. Here is the information they gave me .. aren't I lucky??? "Hysteroscopy is a direct visualization of the uterine cavity, i.e. looking inside the womb by using a hysteroscope. The hysteroscopy is an instrument somewhat like a miniature telescope with a fiber optic system which brings light into the womb...Water is put into the uterus under a low pressure in order to help your doctor inspect the uterine cavity. The water helps to separate the front and back sides of the uterine cavity, making it easier for the physical to see the inside of the uterus." Please keep Kris & I in your thoughts and prayers (especially me tomorrow!). I am nervous, excited, and anxious about this whole process and hope that everything goes as smoothly as possible.